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My 31st Birthday Present: Facing My Attacker & Walking Into Light!

“You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light.” -Psalm 18: 28

Kit Evans facing her attacker

Today is my birthday. I turn 31!

As a birthday gift to myself and my family I decided to face my attacker and consciously work to walk into the light.

Five years ago I was cut with a butcher knife, stripped of my clothing, strangled, and robbed as a stranger whom I did not know, attempted to rape me.

The police caught him.  I and another lady testified a year later and he received 46 years in prison.

Five years ago I also lived in one of the most beautiful places in the world.  I lived in the island nation of St. Kitts and Nevis.

The beautiful Caribbean Sea, palm trees, the sounds of Kittitian dialect, rays of golden yellow sunshine, laughs, and hikes full of delightful high-pitched chirps from 2 feet tall monkey’s.  These make me smile.

Over the years, as I have worked to heal past my assault and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, I have wondered what happened to the man that for whatever reason hurt me and also raped other women.

I have also wondered about all of the beautiful people I met that became family to me in St. Kitts.

Two months ago I decided instead of wondering, why not go back and visit?

No one is going to hurt me and God will never put more on me than I can bear.

Psychologically sometimes the mind tries to create fear that is very deceiving.  Trauma can manifest itself in bad dreams, hallucinations, not being able to breathe properly, fear, fear, anxiety, anxiety, depression, and more.

But, the devil really is a liar.  We do not have to live a life fearing our past and holding on to what someone has done to us. With God all things are possible.

I go back to St. Kitts next week. Not just to face my trauma and the man who assaulted me, but to move forward walking into the light.

Though my assault and trauma left a grayish, black covering over my St. Kitts experience, there is still so much light that I consciously have to allow to shine through.

I’ll be visiting St. Kitts because I know the sun that shines so brightly literally and also through people on the island is what I need to keep with me moving forward healthily.

It is also what I need to have to share with my future children.

I will not hold onto this darkness. I will not even hold on to my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

For my 31st birthday I am consciously walking into the light.

God Bless You!

“For with you is the fountain of life; in your light we see light.” – Psalm 36: 9 (NIV)

Hope Writer: Argrow “Kit” Evans

NOTE: This is a repost of Kit’s article published in her blog Testimonies of Hope and was used with her permission.


About Kit Evans

Argrow Kitnequa “Kit” Evans has multiple degrees, traveled the world, and worked with several organizations.

She learned that these achievements are nothing if she wasn’t blessing other people. She founded “Testimonies of Hope: The Intercultural Christian Devotional Website” to highlight how people attained hope in Jesus Christ despite the bad experiences they went through.

Kit says: “Over the last 17 years I have watched, studied, and served; learning that violence can be prevented and healing from trauma is a journey, but possible.“


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The Day I Met My Biological Father

Testimonies of Hope Kit Evans

When I was 17 years old I worked at a grocery store.  That day at the store seemed to be just like any other day.  The sun blazed through the window as I swiped the food, cigarettes, dog food, and drinks. The job had become routine and I knew many people who visited.

I didn’t know that day I would receive a visit I would never forget.  He was standing in my line watching me; I didn’t even realize it.

When it was his turn I looked up and before I could say a word he spoke, “Happy Valentine’s Day”, and handed me a card.

He stated: “I am your daddy. I am sorry I have not been there for you. But, I am here now.“

I stared in a gaze.  It seemed as if time had stopped around me.  Thoughts raced:  “Who are you? I already have a daddy. Why are you giving me a card?  Why are you here staring at me?”

I opened the card and there was money there. I looked up.

“Sir, I can not take your money.”

He spoke, “Please take it.  I am sorry I was not there for you growing up. I used to watch you from a distance when you were a little girl.  But, I am here for you now.”

I don’t really remember the rest of the conversation, but I do remember him smiling at me.  He walked away; he walked with a limp.

After that meeting I was confused, hurt, loved. There where so many unanswered questions.

Now, 14 years later, some of those questions have been answered.

I learned a lot from meeting my biological father. One thing I have learned is that it is a blessing to forgive others and it is also a blessing to give and receive love.

When a girl or boy grows up without a father in the home there can be issues related to insecurity.

We sometimes think, am I not special enough for you to have stayed?  Am I not special enough for you to have attended my games, purchased my book bag, or even to have taken me out for pizza on my birthday?

Over the years I’ve learned that God gives us love in different ways and through different people.

We may receive that love through our biological parents or God may send a special friend, a new family!

Ephesians 4:2 reads, “Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.”

Over the years I have had my struggles with understanding my relationship with my father, but I have also realized that humility, forgiveness, and love helps us to meet people where they are.

This in turn gives us the space to allow God to meet us where we are.  God ultimately covers us, protects us, loves us, and gives us love on earth!

Be Encouraged Ya’ll,

Hope Writer:  Argrow “Kit” Evans 

NOTE: This is a repost of Kit’s article published in her blog Testimonies of Hope and was used with her permission.


About Kit Evans

Argrow Kitnequa “Kit” Evans has multiple degrees, traveled the world, and worked with several organizations.

She learned that these achievements are nothing if she wasn’t blessing other people. She founded “Testimonies of Hope: The Intercultural Christian Devotional Website” to highlight how people attained hope in Jesus Christ despite the bad experiences they went through.

Kit says: “Over the last 17 years I have watched, studied, and served; learning that violence can be prevented and healing from trauma is a journey, but possible.“


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Starting Ministry Partnership with Testimonies of Hope

From Worry To Glory has started a ministry partnership with Testimonies of Hope.

Kit Evans, founder of Testimonies of Hope describes the details of the partnership in video shown above.

Please take time to watch it. Kit’s message about From Worry To Glory is at 1:09 minutes.

We are thankful and appreciate much the partnership because it expands the community that From Worry To Glory is trying to reach.

This is one historic moment for the blog as From Worry To Glory turns four years on 27 September 2013.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

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From Post-traumatic Stress Disorder to Testimonies of Hope!

Kit Evans - Testimonies of Hope
Agrow ‘Kit’ Evans

I was up late that Tuesday evening. It was around 11:30. I had taken a nap earlier in the evening, so I was now cleaning my kitchen and next I was proceeding to clean my bathroom. I was listening to the latest Hip Hop and R& B song my friend from America had sent me.

I had been on this small island for almost a year serving with a community development program. I felt like I had a new family and community on this small island in the Caribbean. I was content. It was finally starting to feel like home.

That night when I was in the bathroom getting my cleaning supplies from under the sink I heard a noise at the door. When I went to look the door was cracked open. I closed the door thinking that the wind blew it open because I had a visitor earlier. They must not have shut the door.

As soon as I shut the door and I locked it I knew something was wrong. My instincts told me that someone was in the apartment other that me. To this day I still don’t realize why I didn’t trust my instincts. I entered the kitchen with my hands up ready to protect myself.

Within seconds a man jumped out from behind my kitchen wall. Masked, slanted eyes, hot breathe, dark clothes, and a knife that had already started swinging at my hands. He told me to take off my clothes. I changed the subject to money, “You don’t want me, you want money.” The next 15 minutes in this real life horror film would change my life forever. Within that time frame I was strangled, robbed, beat, cut, and there was an attempted rape against my body and spirit.

Unconsciously throughout the entire assault I said, “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus.” He told me to shut up. Unconsciously I started saying, Psalms 23:1 and Psalm 23:4 “The Lord is my shepherd. I shall not want. Even though I walk down the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil; your rod and staff- they comfort me. “ He told me to shut up again.

That night, by the grace of God I was able to get away. With a naked body, bloody hands,and a tortured spirit and mind I was able to fight, break a knife in half, and ask the rapist to use a condom before attempting to rape me.

In the midst of all of this Jesus allowed me to slip underneath the assaulter’s grip, crawl to the door on my knees, and my neighbors who heard my screams drag me upstairs to “safety.” That is nothing but God. Thank you Jesus.

From Posttraumatic Stress Disorder to Testimonies of Hope

So how have I healed from this? How have I been restored? 
It was difficult.

I was diagnosed with something called Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. This caused me to have anxiety attacks, sleepless nights, a fear of knives, sometimes I could not walk down the street alone or enter a house without checking every room and under every bed. At first I was upset, angry, pissed off actually.

I went through a trial. They caught the man. I testified and he received 46 years in prison. I still question is prison really justice?

For a long time I felt sorry for myself. I had to tell my story because I needed people to feel sorry for me. I needed people to know what happened to me, so I shared every chance I could.

This provided me with some healing, however, when I went home I still stared at the door to make sure no one entered while I was sleeping.
 Over the last 4.5 years sharing testimony, counseling, dance, plants, friends, family, and love have healed me. Jesus is the one who is continuing to heal me, and he is also restoring me.

In my travels and in ministry I have realized that EVERYONE has a testimony. I have heard about people’s suffering all over the world, however, I have also heard about their healing and their restoration through their relationship with Jesus Christ.

Everybody has a testimony. Many have been abused, raped, hungry, lonely, sick, neglected, chastised, and the list goes on. But, there is something about believing in something beyond ourselves that gives us hope and a peace that surpasses all understanding.

Philippians 4:7 reads: “And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

Please join our online community, Testimonies of Hope: The Intercultural Christian Devotional Website, for daily inspiration. You will be blessed by stories of suffering, healing, and restoration: Testimonies of Hope!

Peace Ya’ll,

Argrow “Kit” Evans
Founder, Testimonies of Hope: The Intercultural Christian Devotional Website


About Kit Evans

Argrow Kitnequa “Kit” Evans has multiple degrees, traveled the world, and have worked with several organizations.

She learned that these achievements are nothing if she wasn’t blessing other people. She founded “Testimonies of Hope: The Intercultural Christian Devotional Website” to highlight how people attained hope in Jesus Christ despite the bad experiences they went through.

Kit says: “Over the last 17 years I have watched, studied, and served; learning that violence can be prevented and healing from trauma is a journey, but possible.“

Posted in Hope, Inspirational, Living in New Zealand Now, Living in Timaru, South Canterbury living

Work Scheme to Repay Victims of Young Offenders Works Well in Timaru

 

I’m impressed by how the Timaru community redeems the offenders and victims through the work scheme.

Through joint administration of the Child Youth and Family, Timaru District Council and Barnabas Trust, the teenage offenders get paid doing manual jobs around the community such as trimming edges and painting fences.

The money they earned goes to the victims for damages done. Victim Support administers the payment to victims.

I believe it’s a tough project to undertake but retribution has very priceless results for offenders, victims and most of all for Timaru community.

Please click on the image below to read the full article I scanned from The Timaru Herald.

Congratulations to the organisations involved in perpetuating this program. Congratulations Timaru for this noble project!

redeeming the youth

You can read the article on the web too.

Click this link: http://www.stuff.co.nz/timaru-herald/opinion/8950532/Editorial-Now-this-is-real

Posted in Faith, Hope

He’s Prepared A Place For Us

 

Do you worry? Is your heart in trouble?

Please watch and listen to “He’s Prepared a Place for Us” and may the song’s message give you calm assurance.

Jesus Christ has ready the best place for you.

The composer, Errol James says:

“This is the promise we have for those who put their trust in Jesus Christ. No more pain, no more tears, no hunger and no thirst. The bible tells us that “What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived” — the things God has prepared for those who love him”

Keep your faith strong and committed!

Posted in Faith, Hope, Inspirational, Love

Happy Birthday Our Dearest Mother, Nenita Castillon!

Wife, mother, pastor, teacher, tutor, mentor, friend, neighbour, cook, housekeeper, God-fearing, faithful, patient, sweet, loving, strong, full of courage, industrious, healthy, humble…she is everything a mother could be.

Most of all she is the epitome of faith and inner strength, encouraging and keeping us strong always. Happy birthday, our dearest Mum!

From all of us,

Jonan, Jewel and Jadyn

Lola Nits and Jadyn
Lola Nits and Jadyn
Jewel, Jadyn, Nenita, and Jonan
Jewel, Jadyn, Nenita, and Jonan
Nenita and Malvar Castillon family
Nenita and Malvar Castillon family